i yet again fucked up! i always do this. i brake up with someone and then become close with them too soon and get fucked. well kyle wants/ wanted to be friends and i was a complete bitch to him. now i feel he wants nothing to do with me nor the baby at that matter. AHHHH... i just really want to go home more than anyone knows. yea i wanna run away from this problem. Why cant i get the balls like he did and just go home? gaaaaaaa..... i dont know. i will write more later tonight believe me but right now rich needs to get on here and look tabs up for his gig tomorrow! I WANNA GO HOME!!!!!!!!!!!!!

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